I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear; but now my eye sees You; therefore I retract, and I repent in dust and ashes.
The point of devastation… I don’t know that I have experienced this, but lately I seem to be having my share of trials. Most times in my life God has been gracious in His dealings with me; things always seem to work out. We have a little bit more in our bank account and the truck breaks down. The situation at work becomes unbearable and I find a dear friend to confide in and the day goes by quickly. God always seems to balance the good with the bad in my life and this seesaw has developed in me a faith that confidently knows that God is going to take care of me and make me comfortable. When He closes a door, He opens a window, right?
The problem with this faith is that I have grown to expect goodness from my God in the form of material provisions, financial sustenance, and personal happiness. I recently asked the Lord to teach me humility. Knowing this was a dangerous request, I clenched my teeth and have been holding on for the ride ever since. The God that I thought I knew doesn’t seem so familiar anymore. My husband and I feel like a ship battered by the storm; while we are still catching our breath from one trial, we are broad sided by yet another wave of difficulties. I have found myself in a miniature crisis of faith. How can I have faith in a God who isn’t answering my prayers the way He used to? How do I know He is there when He doesn’t take care of me the way He always has?
The lesson in Job is that we are all mere humans. In our eyes, Job had every right to complain. He had lost every blessing God had ever put in His life. How was he to understand this God who seemed to be so merciless? The answer is found in chapter 38. To Job’s questioning God responds, “Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth?” God asserts His Lordship over Job by reminding him of his place.
The application here is simple. If I hope to develop humility, I must first understand my position in light of my great God. Secondly, if I expect to develop any kind of faith, I must learn to trust that God is in control when I feel like He has hung me out to dry. Is it really faith if I know that my financial crisis will be met with an unexpected influx of money? I challenge that true faith is believing in the God that would leave you naked, abandoned, and alone as He did to Job. And true humility is to proclaim, “I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear; but now my eye sees You; therefore I retract, and I repent in dust and ashes.”
I dare you to take this course. Request that God teach you true humility and faith. Humility and faith that believe in the God who would take your future spouse through a torturous bout with cancer. Humility and faith that believe in the God who would lead you into a miserable situation and ask you to stay there and persevere. Humility and faith that believe in the God who might allow you to be barren despite the desperate longing of your heart to have children. Humility and faith that understand that the real blessing from God is eternity with Him and that the trials of this earth only bring us closer to an understanding of how great our Creator truly is.